This last week has been testing my patience, and I think I failed.
My world seems to be spinning without any sign of stopping soon.
It has seemed like forever since my last post. This last week has been insane...an organic chemistry exam, a calculus exam, fighting non-stop with Randy, and crazy wedding drama. Thankfully, all those are over with. I felt like I was pulled in a million directions this week. Something was going wrong at every turn. Now, I can feel myself getting sick...*sigh*. It is so much easier to have a good attitude when things go smoothly, but when you hit a wall every time you try to do something, it is hard to keep in good spirits.
I am starting to put too much on my plate. This week I started an evening class at church called The Truth Project. It digs deep into what the Bible says about a variety of topics from Philosophy, Science, Economics,etc. I'm really excited about it. During the first class, I had a horrible time trying to concentrate because I was so drained from the day. There is a study guide along with it that lists that recommends other books that go deeper into the specific topic for that day. I'm hoping to do a lot of reading this summer. I hope that this class will give me a more solid foundation in my faith.
So now I have something going on every weeknight. I decided to cut out Cru meetings on Wednesdays. I didn't like going to them anyways. There is just so much going on now that I'm ready to have a mental breakdown.
On a good note, I had a wonderful Valentine's Day. Even though I was not able to spend it with Randy, he sent me beautiful flowers the day before Valentine's day to let me know how much he loves me! The bouquet contained pink roses, pink tulips, pink star-gazer lilies (our wedding flower), and some blue and purple flowers to off set the pink. The star-gazers are in full bloom now, but most of the other flowers are dying. On Monday or Tuesday (I don't remember the exact day), I got a package from my sweetie. Inside was the cutest teddy bear holding a heart that said "I love you!". In addition, there was a bag of genuine German chocolate. The whole bag was in German, so I hope I'm not allergic to anything in the candy! Randy and I have made it a tradition to make each other cards for the holidays such as Christmas, birthdays, Valentine's Day, etc. Lately, Randy has amazed me with his card making ability. He gets really creative and crafty with them. I feel bad because I did not have the money or time to make him a card this year. I did make sure I pick out a special card at the store.
Anyways, his card made me cry. It was a heart broken in half. On the front it said " I<3U!" On the back he wrote: Happy Valentine's Day Baby! Seens how you have half of my heart already, I figured I would send you the other half! You'll always be my one and only. PS. I hope you love this other half of my heart as much as the other half. I <3 U!
I broke into tears as soon as I read it! What a wonderful man I have! I'm not going to let this one go! Even reading what he wrote now gets me misty eyed.
We still don't have news if we are going to Minot AFB or a different base. The PRP certification process can take weeks.
Hopefully, thing will get better...patience.
Love is patient.
